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In bad taste: Reminiscing about ancient personal history

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I'm 50 years old today. I'd be happy to stay alive as a female human for 10 more years so I could see my kids grow into adults, but anything's fine, really. I'm getting too old to care. Lately I've thought about my first real job, if you can call it that. I was on summer break from college--yes, I was young once--and this lady who knew my parents needed someone to help care for her bedbound mother and to make dinner for two, the lady herself and her female roommate. The elder care I learned quickly--giving her pills, offering her liquids, feeding her yogurt and pudding, and changing her briefs (adult diapers) and underpads. It was the ladies' dinner antics that still stick to my mind. The two women had a quaint custom: critiquing the meals that their servants served them. I had big shoes to fill. Their longtime helper had scaled back her hours, which was why I had been hired in the first place, and she was an amazing cook. The ladies I had to impress had a few t...

50 years of life

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I'll be 50 years of age in less than three weeks. There won't be a party. There won't be a celebration. I'll have to take my kids to an amusement park on my birthday, but I won't be going on any rides because I'm not young anymore.  Back then, in my twenties and thirties until I had children, I loved to go on amusement park rides. I also had a good job and even some money to spare. How things change when you're old. Now I spend all of my money on basic necessities, food, clothing, and shelter, and I buy things for my children. If there's any cash left over, there's always the kids' college funds and my own rainy day savings account where the money should go.  Nobody understands how good they have it as young, childless, carefree people who can work in the field they went to college for. I worked as a newspaper copy editor for 10 years, and now there's very little work to be had in the newspaper field anymore. Things change.  All I can hope fo...

Hope and faith

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It's been a cold winter here in central Pennsylvania and now, finally, after over a month of below-freezing temperatures, the weather is warming up for a few days. January has been tough. For me, it included a 24-hour period when my natural gas furnace stopped working and I had to rely on two electric space heaters to keep my pipes from freezing. Two visits from service techs later and so far I still have heat, but I'm still scared on cold nights. My guides always tell me not to worry. It's impossible not to worry sometimes and then I chastise myself for not being able to sustain a high frequency. I should have faith that everything in my life will work out, but it's hard.  The one thing that gives me hope right now are the days that are getting longer. Groundhog Day is upon us, too, once again, reminding me that the Earth is still going around the Sun and staying on schedule. All I have to do is keep breathing and eventually summer will arrive. That's what I have f...

Imperfect holidays

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I was watching one of my favorite YouTube channels,   Escape to rural France , where Dan the builder was explaining what he was doing, and you could see his breath because it was so cold. This brought to mind my least favorite cable channel, Hallmark, and its famous Countdown to Christmas movies. I've been forced to watch a lot of those movies with my elderly clients. Sure, the movies are great, nothing traumatic ever happens to anybody, and the endings are always happy, but they are never based on real life. If you watch any Hallmark winter movie closely enough, several themes emerge. Nobody's breath fogs up, ever. This is impossible to achieve in natural settings. Also, people don't button up or zip up their coats and don't wear hats in the middle of piles of snow. The characters in Hallmark movies can walk up and down sidewalks with their coats open or talk to each other outside the front doors of palatial homes in their shirtsleeves without ever getting cold and the...

Focus on the light to get through the elections

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"No matter who wins, nothing will change until the light wins, " my guides have told me about the Nov. 5 elections. They will not comment on who will become president, although they did say Joe Biden's body is so ill that he won't be with us much longer. "The light needs to win," they said, and we can do our part by focusing on the light and holding onto the handholds of the fifth dimension. The fourth is not a stable dimension like the third and the fifth, so we are kind of working our way through the gateway dimension of the fourth to get to the fifth where we can permanently stay when the final push starts in four years or so. In the meantime, we need to breathe in light and breathe out peace, walk the Earth to anchor peace everywhere, and simply try to get through each day. Time is going even faster now, which can also bring opportunities for the quick balancing of karma. Focusing on the light, healing our traumas, taking care of ourselves and others, an...

The UFOs in the clouds

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I'm looking to the skies more often these days. My ET guides, the Tourmalines, have been showing me how people can see their vessels during the day through the positive cloud shapes and the negative spaces between the clouds. As we know from the work of Masaru Emoto, author of the 2005 book  The Hidden Messages in Water , different energy frequencies (thoughts, words, and feelings) directed toward water molecules will influence those molecules to form different shapes. The following photos were taken of the clouds, which are made of condensed water vapor.  I took these pictures on Sept. 7, 2024, from the front steps of my house in Bellefonte, Pennsylvania, where I often sit if it’s warm enough. I got the urge to take pictures of the sky with my iPhone. I didn’t see anything noteworthy right away, but I saw what they wanted me to see after I started paying attention. I took the following picture at 3:49 p.m. The upper-middle part of the photo shows a dome shape partially formed...

Imaginary chicken dinner

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You have to meet people where they are. This also applies in senior care.  People with Alzheimer's or other dementia issues live in their own worlds. Some people relive events from their distant past or they are hallucinating and you have to play along or you might upset them. Family members often don't want to play along because they have a hard time accepting their loved ones aren't the same people they used to be.  Client: Oh, look at that clown on the other side of the street! Me: Wow! Nice flaming hair! Client's daughter: There's no clown there, Dad! Client: You need new glasses or something? Of course, it's frustrating when the client tells me to go away, that I'm not supposed to be in their house, and no matter how many times I explain I'm with the agency that helps them, they won't remember or accept me. Short-term memory goes first for the majority of people. The most frustrating thing for me is when their grown kids walk through the door an...